When I was younger I used to wonder why adults always seemed so aggravated. Now I know. They were tired. You had your first ear infection this past weekend and absolutely could not sleep. You cried and wanted to lay on top of me. This meant that I could not sleep. Let’s be honest. Even when I do get 7 to 8 hours of sleep, I’m still tired. My mind is tired. My body is tired. Everything is tired. I’m happy but exhausted. When you hear someone ask a Mother what she wants for her birthday, Mother’s Day, or Christmas and she says a nap? She’s not joking. She really wants additional hours of uninterrupted quiet time, in a clean house, and peaceful sleep in her own bed.
I was so tired that my brain would not process normally. You said, “Mommy can I have it water?” I gave you juice.
You said, “Mommy can I have it water peeze?” I gave you milk.
You said, “MOMMY WATER!” I said “Huh?” Then later you said, “Mommy color crayons peeze?” I handed you a doll. The look you gave me snapped me out of it. It made me wonder how many other times have I been so tired that you just had to wonder what was going on? I’m sure this won’t be the first time you will just have to give me a Mommy pass so I’m going to start now by apologizing in advance.
If I ever give you juice and milk when all you asked for was water, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If I ever snap at you for no reason, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If you ever have to ask me the same question ten times, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If you tell me something over and over and I swear I have no idea what you are talking about, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If there’s ever a time when I say “no” before you can even get your question out, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If I ever send you to school in mismatched clothes, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If I ever send you to school and forget your supplies, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If you ever eat cereal for dinner, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If I ever completely forget about a scheduled event, play-date, or party, I’m sorry. I was tired.
If I ever take you to school and look like an absolute hot mess, I’m sorry. I was tired.
I’m sure I will think of more things to apologize for in the future. For now, I was just so doggone tired.